Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Embedding=Fun/ Emo bands will rule the world

So yes, as the title says, embedding is fun.

Emo bands will rule the world because everyone gets emo at some( read; most of the) time and since we all arent as musically creative or expressive we have to rely on them to provide an audio output to the outpouring emotions we feel but cant express without including the words "bitch", "fuck", and "YAAARRRGGHHH" in incoherrent sentences while simultaneuously blubbering away because we dont have enough emotional fortitude either. Band name leave much to be desired though

And no, this song is not directed at any one person in particular but rather to a whole host of people who have 'encouraged' and 'inspired' me to say "YARRRRGGGGHHH" at one point. Inside my head. I speak with my inside voice when im talking in my head.

Oh shit, im supposed to be working now

BitterSweet Kanye

man's a poetic genius

Damn embedding is fun as fuck.

Monday, March 30, 2009

The Noose

this just saves the effort of cutting and pasting the lyrics.

Just think of recovering alcoholics and people with holier than thou attitudes when you listen and read the lyrics.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Jam Bumi

So I decided to be one of the sheep and off my lights during earth hour. It was fun to say the least. Sans the stubbing on toes and the sudden realization that im totally fucked in the dark. Here's a pic of the event

cool right?

Monday, March 23, 2009

Kanye West/All falls down/ Embeding testing

Say what you will about Kanye West. People react to him in extremes of love and hate. Descriptions such as lyrical genius to arrogant bastard are all used interchangeably when talking about the man. But honestly, I am a fan of Kanye. Man just writes the greatest lyrics. Something we all can relate to, regardless of race, nationality or social status. I remember the song that made me a fan was "All falls down." Indulge me by allowing me to share it with you. with lyrics of course to follow.

yes, ju has learnt to post video's on his blog.

All Falls Down
Kanye West featuring Sylena Johnson
[Chorus - 4x]
Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down

Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Now, tell me that ain't insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like fuck it, I'll just stay down herre and do hair
Cause that's enough money to buy her a few pairs of new Airs
Cause her baby daddy don't really care
She's so precious with the peer pressure
Couldn't afford a car so she named her daughter Alexus (a Lexus)
She had hair so long that it looked like weave
Then she cut it all off now she look like Eve
And she be dealing with some issues that you can't believe
Single black female addicted to retail and well

Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down

Man I promise, I'm so self conscious
That's why you always see me with at least one of my watches
Rollies and Pasha's done drove me crazy
I can't even pronounce nothing, pass that versace!
Then I spent 400 bucks on this
Just to be like nigga you ain't up on this!
And I can't even go to the grocery store
Without some ones thats clean and a shirt with a team
It seems we living the american dream
But the people highest up got the lowest self esteem
The prettiest people do the ugliest things
For the road to riches and diamond rings
We shine because they hate us, floss cause they degrade us
We trying to buy back our 40 acres
And for that paper, look how low we a'stoop
Even if you in a Benz, you still a nigga in a coop

Oh when it all, it all falls down
I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down

I say fuck the police, thats how I treat em
We buy our way out of jail, but we can't buy freedom
We'll buy a lot of clothes when we don't really need em
Things we buy to cover up what's inside
Cause they make us hate ourself and love they wealth
That's why shortys hollering "where the ballas' at?"
Drug dealer buy Jordans, crackhead buy crack
And a white man get paid off of all of that
But I ain't even gon act holier than thou
Cause fuck it, I went to Jacob with 25 thou
Before I had a house and I'd do it again
Cause I wanna be on 106 and Park pushing a Benz
I wanna act ballerific like it's all terrific
I got a couple past due bills, I won't get specific
I got a problem with spending before I get it
We all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it

[Chorus - to fade (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]

you will, my astute readers, have noticed that some parts of the lyrics are in bold. Its because those are the verses that appealed to me most.
The first verse about the girl who dropped of college, reminds me o f a girl i know and the insecurities and peer pressure that she, and im sure all of us at one time or another experienced.

The second verse of course being about what i had already observed in so many people when money is involved. You lose your identity is what happens, being so caught up in the rat race. And the part about getting back 40 acres, it transcends the black rights to reparations to all those around the world who just want what was promised to them fairly.

The third verse, again about money and material wealth, and how it changes people and their perceptions. And the last three lines, its just like looking into the mirror. and of course, the title, when in all falls down.. whats going to happen? Mr Kanye West leaves that to you, the listener, to make your own conclusions.

This post was as much about trying to embed a video as it was trying to share and analyze lyrics with you. Bur thanks for reading anyway.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

The Friendzone/ Posturing and Passive Aggressiveness

You know, my love life is like my pool playing. I have a few great opening shots but when it comes to the end game i fuck up big time. Yes, the imagery of hitting balls into holes with a long stick does not escape my observation as well. It all comes back to the friend zone thing that I have referred to countless times. I do all the right things that a girl wants to see in a man, but by some twisted mindfuck girls delude themselves into thinking, wait a minute, a perfect guy can't exist. Ergo, he must be a really good friend because only a really good male friend wouldnt take advantage of me and only a good male friend could be so nice to me without ulterior motives. And thats where i slot in. Im always the potential stalker turned good friend in the end. Not that this is a craigslist ad, but i do find myself being a good listener, a gentleman, and im occasionally gut wrenchingly funny. I stress the words "occasionally". And please feel free to comment on those "qualities" or lack of it. This comment is of course only open to people I've dated or attempted to do so, and since more than half of those girls hate (or through a series of fucked up events, mostly on my part, will hate) my guts, im expecting zero comments. So once i pot in those shots which could make efren reyes or alex pagulayan my bitch, i proceed to entrench myself deep into the friend zone. And as we all know, the sitcom of said same named zone is utter cock because friends can never ever get together in real life . The whole Rachael-Ross saga was a good run until the end where the writers basically copped the fuck out to give everyone that ridiculously false feel good feeling. Reality, my friends, is a motherfucker. I should know. I did a dissertation on it in Life 101. It was entitled "posturing and passive aggressiveness. How girls mindfuck themselves when it comes to relationships"

On that same note, since most girls have that perennial feeling of no guy can be that good unless he's my friend, i have come to the conclusion that most girls want to be with someone fucked up. Unintentionally or not, i leave it open to debate. But if you answered in the latter, you have some serious inferiority complexes and issues to deal with Rhianna. Thats the term im going to use from now on to refer to these confused females who deliberately get into harmful relationships because of some deep seated psychological problem. But of course im being condescending. I've been through harmful relationships myself. But it the fact that i learn from these incidents that allows me the right to be condescending. At least in my own personal rant-o-log anyway.

Me and Megaman are officially over. As in over attempting to recreate old feelings in new experiences anyway. As in i will still be single and she most decidedly will not be. I kinda thought so from the start anyway. Which is why im not as deeply psychologically scarred again. It hurts, but it hurts like a stubbed toe. It'll go away eventually. More in the short term effect anyway. Benefits of being a realist and not becoming too emotionally vested in something which you know will in all likelihood fail anyway but you give it a go because of sentimental value. Sentimental value means squat in the world now anyway. The world is a harsh and cruel mistress that indulges in SadoMasochism. All for the price of your innocence and sanity. Counterstrike on the other hand... she's Blanche DuBois personified. Im a little bit to lazy to go into details, plus i dont want to be sued for defamation, but i am alluding to the fact that her character fits perfectly into that of Blanche. Read a Streetcar named Desire if you want to know ed zachery what im talking about.

So, in closing, fuck all the posturing and all the passive aggressive bullshit.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009