ode to a Hero/ much ado about nothing

i dont know how you do it. it all seems so....convenient for you to hold back the flood. Compared to your floodgate, mine's just a plank. I guess things are more advantageous for you. Yeah i know how it feels. If i was in your position i wouldnt have done the same. I did sacrifice. fresh loaf of bread for a stale one. Oh, Hero, thou art a hero to all and all to me. The very existence of the situation stings like arrows to the heart. yet we must persevere to maintain this delicate facade of insecurity for selfish needs. To admit defeat and helplessness, i am not ashamed and sleep better at night knowing i do not hide.You have no shame. but thou art a Hero to us all, all and none to me. Periods of adjustment seem to bear no significance to you. I have gone through the wash cycle of adjustments and hell.. and yet im am thou faithful villain. Forever i must remain hidden in the dark, your deadly garrote of reality which could sever your honky dory happy life. yet i chose not to for i am eternally in your siren's spell. Thou art a selfish Hero to all and to yourself. And i shall forever remain your most faithful villian.

yeah....got a little Shakespearean.