update.or for want of a better title

yeah...as u can tell genius this is the first post in quite a while. sorry.. have a life. been fucking insanely anal raping-ly extremely buzy with classes and.. inner conflicts for want of a better term to describe it. so... my sis just left for Cali ..er...right now (time being 1530) and left me to be master and lord of the house. well..me and hermes anyway. i would say that's great and all...the freedom and coping with independence...but you know.. humans are social creatures and coming home everyday to an empty house with hermes isisnt really that great of a feeling. dont get me wrong...i love hermes to bits...but i dont think i shall discusssing the Illiad with him anytime soon. come to think of it..i never did have an intellectual conversation with my sis either...oh well..will miss the feeling of being superiorly intellectual over her... nah..just kidding...will miss u sis...have fun in Cali with mum...and dont forget my fucking 311 t- shirt damnit!!

right...holidays now..fuck the ass raping-ly hard ass-ignments. over and done with for the entire course. have no plans currently except to ensure that hermes is kept alive and the house is still standing in 3 weeks time. Christmas...well.. got somethings planned...invited to various parties. Not that Christmas really meant anything to me anyway... i never believed in Santa and i never got what i wanted and Christmas love in Malaysia is almost non-existant. There is no "special brotherly love" here..on the day Jesus was born to save mankind. So heck...Christmas is just another day to me. Not like ppl here believe in mistletoes anyway. But i did be fucking cool if they did.

in regards to my inner conflicts. no prizes for guessing what its about. dont really want to talk about it either. it'll just make me feel worse. no..i did not kill anybody nor am i thinking of committing suicide. and im definately not gay. someone please shoot me in the head five times and decapitate me if i ever was. yes...im still homophobic in the most hypocritical manner. u know what the hypocritical part is all about.

if my classmates ever find out about this blog....yes i will admit it...i dont very much like most of you in class because you're all either to cliqued or too fucking nerdy that its bordering on lan si- ism. Give me that condescending look again and i'll take that fucking text book and beat you senseless with it and then ram it down your fucking holier than thou throat. Just because you do better than me in class does not give you the right to look down on me. And yes... i have a huge fucking crush on gyn and would not mind doing her in 20 different positions along with swee ling. fucking happy now? now lets all just move on with our lives after that rm1000 bid shall we?

the ASEAN summit was a total waste of time and national resources. we did not do shit even when russia and aussie and new zealand and china and japan came. all we fucking did was agree that we did not want u.s interference. whats fucking new lar... its like a fucking kopitiam meeting. Talking shop...as the americans so succintly put. Fuck ASEAN....never did any good nor will it ever.

i wish ppl would leave their names when they comment...so that i can either thank you for stopping by or inform you that stupidity causes cancer.

would fucking rant more now but im really tired after 36 hours of no sleep. i had a short 15 minute nap where i dreamt that hermes spoke to me... cant remember what he said though....heh

angst u laterz.